why i feel so old


I work three jobs… sometimes four…. I work at a barbershop, my mother’s hairsalon….paint murals and windows for local businesses and occasionally serve at a japanese/korean restaurant… I just recently turned 23 and i feel like an old fart because everytime i bend over.. my back goes out, everytime i wake up i feel like as if someone beat me up in my sleep, everytime i go out with friends I feel like as if Im the old granny that can’t keep up. I get tired after a dance or two, when i try to wear sexy clothes i feel embarressed, clothes just dont look the same anymore… i catch myself making small talk with my clients about the weather and how marriage drains the life out of you..like i would know..? well most of my clients are old grandpas anyway. Everyday one of my body parts fall apart… IM just falling apart in general… i find myself wondering about 401K and my retirement funds.. I think about wrinkles and when im going to loose all me teeth… ugh Im sick of clubs and the bar scene already… this isnt normal.. right? IM starting to wonder if my boobs are going to drop anyday now. ugh… whats next? farting dust? maybe im just going thru a bitter middle age crisis… lol ;ppppp oh great now i sound like my grandma …bitter and cranky…