When the going gets tough, the tough get going..

I feel like a champ. black eye and all.

Its so amazing how, you come to realize the most magnificent things in the darkest of hours. I couldn’t be in more physical pain right now. But as I sit here and push through the pain, it makes me come to my senses about certain aspects of life. Maybe I’m just a little slow to figuring things out or what, but last night, a good friend held me up, and made me realize exactly what I need.

I’m a pretty decent person, most would say. I do a lot of things for people that I don’t have to do, but, I like to help out, I enjoy being there for people, I almost can’t help it. But I’ve come to see that, everybody that I do that for, isn’t always going to be there for me. And you know what, I’m okay with that. That might mean, I may not drop everything for you anymore, but if you don’t want to be there for me, its okay. My feelings aren’t hurt. Trust me. I have plenty other people that are more than willing to be full time friends to me. These “part time friends” only come around when they need you for something, but when you need them, you better just forget about it. Its not going to happen. Well part time friends, adios to you. I also find it mildly entertaining, that people realize how good you are to them once you give them the boot. By getting rid of some people in my life, its caused some serious turmoil. Apparently since I get you out of my life because you’re nothing but a downer, it gives you the right to talk bad, start rumors, make me feel awful? Since when? Way to just lower yourself down and make me respect you even less. I’ve got enough going on in my own life, I don’t need to deal with whatever you have to say about me. Go ahead, say it. and if you want to make it even more high school related, talk about it behind my back.

I’m grown up, I don’t need your crap. I’ve got a lot of thinking to do, and many changes to make, and I’m ready.