The words we could not say

11/21/07 3:50am
Do you ever feel like that you had everything you have ever wanted just slip from beneath your fingers? That maybe if you would have taken a closer look earlier the whole situation in which you find yourself could have been avoided. Sometimes in life we experience bad things that make us want to crawl into some cave and never come out for fear of feeling that same heartache and pain. At times we drown our pains with alcohol, but it is only a temporary fix for a deeper-rooted problem. Different things in life can cause pain: losing a loved one, watching someone you love get very sick and lose their memory, deciding that it is time to break up, being with someone whom you love completely but knowing that you will never have their whole heart and the list goes on.
Sometimes, I think it would just be easier if I could do things with no feeling, but I can’t no matter how hard I try. There is always some level of feelings involved with every relationship. I am human and I feel everything every happiness and every heartache. I am not sure if we ever truly get over the people we love. They will always hold a place in our hearts forever. Past loves and relationships can be extremely difficult to get over. Especially when you are not even sure what went wrong. It is in these times we have to find our own closure and our own way to move on. It is not easy waking up in the morning knowing that nothing will ever be the same and that you must keep moving forward without looking back.I know that I am a strong person and I continue to experience a little bit of every bad thing that life has to offer. They say where God shuts a door he opens a window and that he will never give you more than you can handle. I believe it to be true however, it does not make the pain any less or the joy anymore.