Layin it out there

I have the freedom, the right to be anything I want, do as I please, and believe in whatever I want. I don’t make people do self checks of who they are as individuals, truth tests, and make them take reality checks. I constantly have to prove myself, I constantly have to fight rumors and drama, and I always have to overcome decisions I made for myself even if it hurt other people. The best part…when I finally rise above all of that, I get let down, lied to, shit on, and burned. I’m sick of this shit. I am who I am, and I have made decisions that has lead me down paths just like other people. SO BACK OFF.

Why do people constantly have to test me? For those of you who see me for who I am, this does not apply to you. Those of you who constantly doubt me, lie to me, cross me, criticize me, why? What are you trying to prove? What are you trying to get out of me? I will prove nothing to you except your own faults, I will not give you information to use against me. Instead, you’ll get nothing from me as you fade out of my world. I told you all before in my profile, if you aren’t down with me, then fuck you, I don’t need you.

I can be the nicest guy, give you friendship, give you loyalty, be a shoulder to cry on when you need it. But don’t think for one minute that I won’t take all that away just because you feel that you can take that for granted. I’m a nice guy yes, but not a pushover that will stand by as you constantly try to point out my mistakes and bad decisions. We all make mistakes, and I guarantee I have done more good things over time than bad.

You know, that’s a funny thing though about people. They always remember the bad stuff more than they do the good. For me, I personally try to weed out the bad, and focus more on good. Why? Because the more you concentrate on the bad, the more clouded your mind gets about that person. That person then doesn’t have a fighting chance, and no matter what he/she does, you’ll never let them rise above a mistake. REMEMBER: You are not infallible! I bet all of you have inner demons that you want to forget. So why continue to not let others live it down? Any of you know the Lord’s Prayer? Remember the line, “Forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive those who trespass against us”? Don’t you think it’s time to forgive?

Look, I am who I am, no more and no less. Yes I have lied in the past, yes I have hurt some people in the past, and yes I am sorry for that. Shit happens, and there is nothing I can do about it now. Stop judging me, and definitely stop talking shit about me. Because believe me, I have lots of information on people that cross me that I could do some serious damage. If you don’t think I do, try me. Believe me, I’m not too proud to stoop to your level to even the playing field.

Yes this is an angry post. This is what happens when a NICE GUY gets treated like shit. We lash out in a very loud way. So I’ll tolerate all the BS for a little bit longer, but trust me, that clock is running out fast.