you know.. for those of you that have read my last entry.. you can see that I haven’t had the best year this past year..
I just feel like things have all been crumbling down around me. I feel like i have realized so much about people too.
I love my mom, I really do. I know that she has been dealt a hard hand in life, and I feel bad for her. She lost her mom at 16 was then raised by an abusive father. Had my brother when she was 18 going on 19. Got married to my dad at a young age.. had me at 22.. was in a verbally abusive relationship with my dad. Divorced him, married my stepdad.. and has gone through hell and back with him.. and sometimes he still treats her terribly. She just recently lost her best friend and now is talking about divorcing my stepdad.. b/c for Christmas she got nothing from anyone. I have been broke b/c i withdrew from school, and haven’t been able to get a job.
Even though she has been through all of this, I feel like she does cause a lot of trouble for herself. She sometimes doesn’t know when to just not say things. She just keeps going on and on.. and causes more problems. I know some of you are reading this wondering why I am writing about this on mojo, but I am able to get it out.
Thats really the way I am. I keep things inside of me for a long time, and when I finally feel like opening up.. I have to get it out.. or else i will just bottle it up in me for longer.
I also have realized some things about people. I think that sometimes people hold onto grudges for too long, or just don’t realize that life is way too short to be angry.. or immature. When I came back from school I was really hoping to catch up with old friends.. and see people that I thought I missed. Some of the people have been really great to see.. and others.. I really wish I would have never seen.
Like I said in my last post, I had my heart broken. I mean shattered. Him and i have still been able to stay friends, b/c thats just the way I am. I like to keep as many friends as I have. But since he has been home from school, it seems that everyone else is more important then me. I HATE THAT. I hate feeling like I am the last resort to someone. Actually it seems like all the friends that I have.. I am the last person they call to hang out with. I just don’t get it. I am a fun person to be around, and I am honest, and very laid back. I don’t like drama at all.. but the people that I guess I was surrounding myself with.. have to have drama in their life at all times.
I have enough drama with my family.. that I stay so far away from it. I think thats one of the reasons why I joined Mojo, was to find new friends and people to hang out with. Not one person that I have met on here, has been mean whatsoever. Everyone has welcomed me with open arms and I am just so excited to actually start hanging out with everyone.. and have great people in my life.
In good news though.. I have a 30 min phone interview with fifth third bank tomorrow to see if I get the job for a bank teller. I am so excited!! wish me luck
well, im going to bed now.. I need to get things off my mind!
Hello everyone.. I am new to mojo… haven’t been to any events yet, but have chatted back and forth with a few people and know a couple of mofo’s on here as well.
I was sitting here thinking about how, other then what my profile says, not many of you really know about me. So, I decided that I would give you a guys a quick summary of the past year for me…
The beginning of the year, I lost a friendship of nine years and my roommate. I had another friend move in with me. I was working at the Macaroni Grill. I was the “to go girl”. The beginning of April I got a puppy, and two weeks later had surgery on a herniated belly button. I had an outtie for 20 years.. and now have an innie. Soon after that a good friend of mine left for the army. Then I had the worst possible thing happen. I made a bad decision and had the wrong person move in to be a third roommate, and lets just say put my life on the line. We got robbed at the end of June and I was held at gunpoint in my bathroom. One of my roommates got shot in the hip (he was a guy) and was fine. I then moved back in with my parents and lost my apartment. I had to get rid of my dog b/c i was being put in college.
My 21st birthday was at the end of July. It wound up being a lot of fun. My mom took me, and 5 of my friends out to Bourbon Street and the Slippery Noodle downtown in a limo. Unfortunately, we got thrown out of Slippery Noodle.. and it wasn’t even my fault! I wasn’t even that drunk on my 21st!! rediculous if you ask me..
I left for school August 18, and met a great guy at the beginning of September. I started having problems with depression from being away from home, and having that security of my parents not being around anymore. I stopped going to classes, and then ultimately tried to end my life. I wound up withdrawing from school, breaking up with my boyfriend, and moving back home. Things have been rough since i have been back home as well.
I am not sure whether or not I am going back to school, and we had a really close family friend pass away about a week ago. I reunited with friends, and chose to cut some friends out of my life forever.
By being on mojo.. i have talked with some amazing people, and I really can’t wait to start going to events.
The past year, has really been miserable for me, and I just can’t wait to get into the new year, and just have a new beginning. I am really a happy person, I have just been dealt a hard hand in life, and I am refusing to let it bring me down. I am 21 years old, and extremely outgoing, and the only thing I can do is bring out the best in people.
SO 2007 can go screw itself, b/c 2008 is coming, and I have a feeling its going to be amazing!!!