I guess I’m such a misanthrope because the majority of society is so caught up in the day to day bullshit of life that they can’t sit back and enjoy the beauty of nature. I was fortunate enough in my 8th grade year (yeh it’s fucked up, but ya know…I’ve always danced to the beat of a different drummer)to be far enough away from city lights to experience seeing the majority of the Milky Way and oh my fucking god…it was so beautiful I literally wept..I revelled in childlike wonder at something so simple as the night sky, granted it was the night sky as I’d never seen it before, yet it’s still fairly simple if you look at it a certain way. And when I lived in Oregon…every clear morning I’d watch the sky and see the sun rise over the top of Mount Hood and just stare in wonder at the simple beauty. Having never lived near a mountain it was an experience I never took for granted. Then just last year I was in Ferdinand Indiana near St Meinrads (which is actually one of two Archabbey’s in the western hemisphere, I was actually converting to Catholicism…THAT DIDN”T LAST LONG!)and it was a cool crisp morning, the birds had just started chirping and the sun was rising…my god it was breathtaking…like I said…I truly revel in childlike wonder at such simple, yet amazingly beautiful things….honestly…if people would just take a few moments to sit back and take a break from worry about their jobs, or shit like that….they wouldn’t miss out on the beauty of simplicity..or at least the way I look at it it’s simplicity. Next time you have a chance…just sit back and take a break from the complexity of everyday life and take a moment to enjoy the beauty of nature around you…it just might be a life changing experience.

Yeh, Sheena and John (well not really sure how you spell his name) bought me a drink tonight and that’s prolly why I got kicked out…but oh well mission accomplished because I planned on gettin messed up and I succeeded.

I do believe someone accidentally may have taken my jacket this Wednesday…It’s a Columbia jacket that is grey and blue…if anyone knows what happened to it lemme know cuz I need it….it’s one of my few winter coats lol.

In this bloody pool
I see such a fool in me
Now my blood is gone
How could I let myself believe
In you

Now I’m cryin’
Cause I’m tryin’
Too hard
Mirror’s fadin’
My heart
Can I kill the past
With one look
At this fool

Thought I read the signs
Leading to divine embrace
I misread the words
Took a giant leap of faith
For you

My disaster
Made you master
Of me
No hereafter
No more chapters
Will you let me go
Or hold on
To this fool

Ahhhh! Another year gone by…time’s flown by. Seems like just yesterday it was January and cold as hell. Ah well, can’t control the ebb and flow of time…so I guess I shouldn’t bitch too much right? Scary thought is the fact Ima be 28 years old (that’s old right?)…I mean woah..what happened to 22-27? Hehe. Anyway..I gotta run…things to do…peeps to meet..ya know the drill.

Yeh, I woke up at 5 am this morning for no apparent reason…I have one of those really big, bright digital clocks on my table in my room. (yeh, my room contains one of my beds, and my computer desk/table that’s IT.)So I was like…WTF…Grrrrr…rolled over…bitched and complained rather loudly, smoked a cig…got breakfast and imbibed the daily necessity called caffiene…and yeh…it’s been uphill since then. We’ll see what’s up as the day goes on.

FRIENDS:Will stand by you while you piss.

INDIANA FRIENDS: Will shine a spotlight on you while your
drunk ass is taking a piss in the bushes.
FRIENDS: Call your parents Mr. and Mrs

INDIANA FRIENDS: Call your parents drunk as hell and tell
them about the fat chick you tried to pick up

FRIENDS: Hope the night out drinking goes smoothly, and
hope that no one is late for the ride home.

INDIANA FRIENDS: Know some wild shit will happen, and set
up rally points.

FRIENDS: Bail you out of jail and tell you what you did
was wrong.

INDIANA FRIENDS: Will be sitting next to you saying,
Damn…that shit was fun “

FRIENDS: Cry with you.

INDIANA FRIENDS: Laugh at you, and tell you to dry up. Clown Love is all you need.

FRIENDS: Borrow your stuff for a few days then give it

INDIANA FRIENDS: Steal each other’s stuff so often nobody
remembers who bought it in the first place.

FRIENDS: Know a few things about you.

INDIANA FRIENDS: Could write a book with direct quotes from

FRIENDS: Will leave you behind if that’s what the crowd
is doing.

INDIANA FRIENDS: Will kick the whole crowds ass that left

FRIENDS: Would knock on your door.

INDIANA FRIENDS: Walk right in and say, “I’m home!”

FRIENDS: Will try and talk to the bouncer when you get
tossed out of the bar.

INDIANA FRIENDS: Will buck up and go after the bouncer for
touching you on the way out.

FRIENDS: Will wish you had enough money to go out that
night, and are sorry you couldn’t come.

INDIANA FRIENDS: Will share their last dollar with you,
drag you along, and try to steal free drinks all night.
FRIENDS: Will take your drink away when they think you’ve
had enough.

INDIANA FRIENDS: Will look at you stumbling all over the
place and say, “You better drink the rest of that shit, you know we
don’t waste. That’s alcohol abuse!!!” HAHAHAHA !!!!

FRIENDS: Want the money they loaned you back next week.

INDIANA FRIENDS: Can’t begin to remember who owes who money
after taking care of each other for so long.

FRIENDS: Will say “I can’t handle Tequila anymore”.

INDIANA FRIENDS: Will say “okay, just one more…” and then
2 minutes later “okay, just one more!”.

FRIENDS: Will talk shit to the person who talks shit
about you.

INDIANA FRIENDS: Will knock them the Fuck out!!

Stupid Landsharks…stupid dresscode…stupid not getting in because of baggy ass bondage pants…but I still had fun..so it’s all good…yeh..I’m done.