Written on November 14, 2007
Imagine being locked in a room for weeks on end. Now, imagine this room is filled with a hundred people, none of which you can look at or talk to or touch. It is the epitome of temptation. Worse than the cliche of “look but don’t touch.” I think maybe the purpose of this procedure is to draw the ‘evil’ out of us. See no evil. Hear no evil. Speak no evil.
At first, this process is not seemingly difficult. Just be in the room, and do what you’re told. Simple enough. Except that the humanity factor is involved (and possibly the American Complex). We are taught to question things, learn about people, look people in the eyes when they’re talking to you, etc. The point is that on the surface this situation seems easy, but it;s one of the most traumatizing experiences a person will ever have.
Now imagine getting out of this room after several weeks. You pretty much have no idea how to act, what’s acceptable, and what’s not. Then when you are released “into the wild” you get an immediate high. You realize that it;s okay to smile and laugh. You see the color of someone’s eyes and realize that they’re not screaming at you for disrespecting them. In fact, that same person with those beautiful brown eyes is staring right back into yours and smiling.
The interesting thing is that this is where the detox begins. You are allowed to look someone in they eyes. You notice that it is okay to smile and laugh. Then slowly, other liberties return to you. Day by day you become similar to the person you were before being locked in the social solitary confinement. However, you will never be the same.
The nightmares you experienced weren’t nightmares at all. These were actual happenings, moments in your life. Eventually the scars will fade, but until they become scars in the first place, you are forced to bleed through painful memories…through your antisocial detox.